June 3, 2014, at 10:13 pm
DAD: He was suppose to have an EGD and a COLONOSCOPY yesterday but his breathing was so shallow that they could not do the colonoscopy. He is anemic and has blood in his bowels. MAY try again next month. Family doc put him on breathing meds today and told him to STOP SMOKING! He is scheduled for cataract surgery next week. Will probably have to reschedule. Will find out tomorrow. Rosie and I TRY to get him to follow doctors orders but he refuses to listen to anything we have to say. His sugar gets down under 60 all the time and he refuses to lower his insulin dosage to help it get normal.
ROSIE: She was walking our Pomeranian Frenchee and injured her ankle. It was not fractured (blessing) but a week later she ended up in the ER with CELLULITIS. She got an antibiotic injection and on pills for 10 days. It is improving but she is in so much pain. Please pray for her. I hate seeing her in pain.
ANGELA: ME: My glucose has been uncontrolled most of my life cause…to be brutally honest… I just haven’t cared if I lived or died. I have started checking my glucose levels often and doing my best to get it to normal. I see an Endocrinologist in July to assist me. This week my sugar has been under 70 to a high of 490. Seems Victoza is no longer working. Taking Glipizide/Metformin now and it is much better. I may even suggest going back on insulin. Since my sugar has been fairly good for a few days, I feel so much better and have motivation to get it controlled.
I fell the other day, I have weakness in my legs and arms. Fibromyalgia stinks. Also been having balance issues for a few years… ever since I had Rhabdomyolysis and went into Renal failure and needed Dialysis. At one point doctors didn’t think I would walk again. With God’s help we proved the doctors wrong. Doctors are not sure what caused the Rhabdomyolysis but THINK it may have been statins I was taking for my cholesterol. Just grateful that my kidneys improved… latest labs show my kidneys are near normal now. ANOTHER BLESSING.
Rosie and I have always dealt with our Father Charles being critical and negative towards any and everything we say and do. Everyone thinks Dad is the coolest, most adorable loving man alive BUT Rosie and I see a whole different person at home. He is loud & verbally abusive. I have never even once been hugged by him. Never understood why my Mommy ever stayed with him. He has never been loving nor affectionate with Rosie & I. He thinks as long as he provides money to the family that is ALL he has to do. Never been able to sit down and talk to Dad about my emotions. I have been suicidal in the past and all he says is STOP IT… like that is going to work.
He has never appreciated all that I have sacrificed for Rosie. She has been disabled most of her life and I have given up having a life at all to take care of her. I LOVE & ADORE ROSIE and would do it the same way all again. She needs me and I will always be there for my sissy.
At times all I want to do is get Rosie, our pets, and move far far away and start our lives over fresh and anew. Just want to escape from all of Dad’s verbal and mental abuse.
Help me, Dear Lord, Help me and Rosie cope better. Make my Daddy a more understanding positive individual. Make our home one filled with peace and serenity. In Jesus’ name I pray.
The reason I have not dated in 20 years (ever since Dad injured his back and retired) is because I am ashamed and embarrassed of him.
I ask God to help me become a kinder, gentler, more understanding, compassionate, loving woman. One that can recognize and accept that I am can know love and accept love in return.
Lord, Open my eyes, ears, mind, heart, soul, spirit and guide me to my helpmate. Asking you to do the same to the man I am suppose to be with. I surrender to thee.
Blessed with so many friends. Could not make it without their love and affection. I love you Shane, Jessica, Danielle, and Rick. Thank you Jesus.
Prayers appreciated and returned,
April 13, 2014, at 7:02 pm
Went out shopping with Dad and Rosie… Ollies, K-Mart, The Cookout…. more like browsing, wishing, and hoping.
Rosie did find 2 pairs of jeans @ $2.99 each!
Dad owes the IRS $923.00 in TAXES on his Social Security and UMWA Pension. UGH! Not fair that after working all his life (he is now 73) that he has to pay taxes on his retirement!
It will wipe out ALL that is left in his Savings. He has had to PAY taxes for the last 8 years now. We had a decent amount in savings but all of us have health issues and it depleted quicker than we had planned on.
Not easy to have major health issues. We all have insurance that pays about 80%-and even up to 100% at times BUT when a surgery and hospitalization goes into the hundred thousand dollar range it gets expensive. Plus it costs a small fortune for co-pay for meds, traveling back and forth to doctors, hospitals, labs, ER. Just glad we do have insurance. Blessed to have it. Thanks Obama and The Affordable Care Act for all you have done to help America.
Some weeks we would drive 1000 miles back and forth between Charleston and Pineville,WV when Mom had to have her leg amputated and then therapy.
When Dad injured his back on the job in Virginia and we lived in West Virginia… he had to drive 250 miles round trip 3x a week for physical therapy!
SADLY it seems my family has spent most of our lives waiting and the doctor’s office, ER, Hospital or traveling to and from those places.
Mom’s Health: Diabetic Insulin Dependent, COPD, Endometrial Cancer, Hysterectomy, Breast Polyps, Multiple Strokes, Hypertension, Hypercholesterolemia, Renal insufficiency, MRSA. Ending up having both legs amputated above the knee due to Atherosclerosis.Injured her back in a car accident and needed 6 months of therapy 3x’s a week, 80 mile round-trip. She passed away in 2006. Miss you much Mommy.
Dad’s Health : Diabetic Insulin Dependent, Herniated Discs, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Osteoarthritis, Carpal Tunnel, COPD, Sleep Apnea, Allergies, Hypertension, Oral Cancer, Glossectomy, Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Hypercholesterolemia, Benign prostatic hyperplasia.
Rosie’s Health: Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis (age of 6) With Linear Scleroderma, Had a Splenectomy due to Hemolytic Anemia associated with Rheumatoid Arthritis. Contracture of Ankles, Elbows, Wrists, Fingers, Toes, & Shoulders. Allergies, Osteoarthritis, MRSA, Cholecystectomy, Septicemia, Scoliosis, 4 Umbilical Hernia Repairs, Osteoporosis, Hypothyroidism, Menorrhagia, Endometrial Hyperplasia, Gastric Bypass BilioPancreatic with Duodenal Switch, Severe Malnutrition from Gastric Bypass… had to have the BPD/DS partially reversed to rectify the malnutrition. Formerly Morbid Obesity, Diabetics and Hypertensive. Been wheelchair bound since 16. She is now 46…has spent 30 years wheelchair bound. Was on TPN and feeding tubes for over a year. Was once Diagnosed with Endometrial Cancer but a few D&C’s it got it all. PTL!
Angela’s Health: Diabetes (Insulin Dependent from age 16-to-46 now takes Victoza and Metformin) Fibromyalgia, Rhabdomyolysis, Renal Failure, Dialysis, Depression, Dysthymia, Social Anxiety, Panic Attacks, Charcot-Marie-Tooth, Hypothyroidism, Endometrial Hyperplasia, Anemia, Irritable Bowel Syndrome, Allergies, Gastroparesis, Chronic Fatigue, Insomnia, Adhesive Capsulitis of Shoulder (through intense physical therapy I regained use of my arms and shoulders), Dupuytren’s Contracture (Daily therapy at home), Short Achilles Tendon… (Daily therapy at home) Neuropathy, Sleep Apnea, Menorrhagia, Septicemia(age of 5). Cholecystectomy, Hypertension (age 16) Now off hypertension meds as well as the Insulin Pump due to Gastric Bypass Roux-n-y. Formerly Morbid Obese. 2 Suicide Attempts. Was once Diagnosed with Endometrial Cancer but a few D&C’s it got it all. PTL! Yes, Both Rosie and I had the same situation.
Whew! That is more than enough for one family to handle!
I just pray that in the future all of our health improves for the better… and so does our financial circumstances.
Surrendering it all to our Lord God Almighty,
April 3, 2014, at 4:21 pm
I had 2 Uncle’s pass away within the past few days and I found out both had died in an online PUBLIC POSTING on Facebook.
It truly ‘hurt’ me that no one cared enough to call our family with this information. Asking the Lord to help me deal with everything. My heart is broken. What in the world have we become? A Society with a total lack of compassion? Hope not…. but the past week it seems that way.
Deeply saddened with the passing of my Uncles.
Praying that their families deal with their loss. Grant them peace and serenity.
December 28, 2013, at 1:09 pm
Here area few select pondering’s that I posted on Twitter the month of December 2013
People should paint the canvas of lives with brushstrokes of patience, sacrifice, vulnerability, faith, humility, love, & compassion. AMEN!
Grateful for all the experiences it took to get me where I am at… a place of clarity filled with serenity, love, compassion, faith & hope.
Sometimes life doesn’t give you what you WANT because you NEED something else. what you need often comes when you’re not looking for it.
Listen to God: He wants a one on one relationship with you! Pray about a situation and God will Guide you to the answer you seek.
God has a purpose for your pain, reasons for your struggles, & gifts for your faithfulness. DO NOT GIVE UP!
I don’t care about the presents,Underneath the Christmas tree. I just want U 4my own, More than U could ever know, Make my wish come true…
I admit that I talk 2 my mommy N heaven every day. I only spent a few days EVER away from her when both of us were hospitalized. Missing her.
Dear God, help me to put aside the things that are breaking my heart, to pray about things that break yours.
God please send me the people I need in my life to encourage me and guide me to do great things in your name and honor. I surrender All.
“When you miss me… Look up at the night sky…. I am up there watching and protecting you always.” ~Your loved ones.
There is a lesson we need to learn through all issues God places in our lives. Someday God will reveal the reason for everything.
Spirituality does not come from religion… it comes from your soul.
God didn’t lead you to this point to abandon you. Keep on trucking along. God is with You and will never fail you. Just be quiet and listen.
God is the reason why even in pain, I smile. In confusion, I understand. In betrayal, I trust. In fear, I continue to push forward.
Wish people would stop ‘selecting’ bible verses 2 follow. Read & Study the ENTIRE Bible. Pray. In the end all U need 2 know is GOD IS LOVE.
God always has your best interest at heart. When a door closes, you don’t know what God may be saving you from.
The God I serve is a God Of Love…. and not a bigot like He is being portrayed. So frustrated with people using The Name of God with hatred
So grateful that I have learned to love everyone no matter their race, religion, size, sexual preference. Love & acceptance!
I know all the illnesses that is laid upon me, God is walking beside me… cheering me on saying “He’s got this… don’t worry & keep going”
BE KNOWN for your kindness, compassion, sympathy, equality and love toward all people.
Stop WAITING for The weekend, Summer, New Years, etc Start living your life today. Celebrate the day, time, season you are in. LIVE LIFE!
If you want to know where you heart is, look where your mind goes when it wanders…
Love yourself first and then others will be attracted to your inner light. Smile inwardly and others will fall in love with you,
I know when the time is right God will bring me my mate. Asking for patience, guidance, and strength. EXCITED about what is ahead for me.
Don’t edit your dream… think big… make it something U can see in UR mind…God with help U materialize it with some effort…SURRENDER.
Someone clicking Like, Favoriting or commenting on a posting really can make my day. Simple little things lets me know I am loved. Thanks
Let your requests be made known unto God… the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts & minds through Christ.
Grateful that God thought I was good enough to be a caregiver to my lovely sis Rosie. She is such a special person. we are best friends.
Asking God to guide my mate to me. Give us both guidance, patience, fortitude, health, strength, love, family, protection. Prepare us both.
“Don’t tiptoe though life unless you are in a field of Tulips with Tiny Tim, ”
Rosie had a feeding tube for 9 months. It left a scar in shape of a HEART!
December 27, 2013, at 10:44 pm
I am blessed to be surrounded by so many loving friends and family.
For the past few weeks, I have been doing so much better. I have to thank my family and friends for all their love, support, and prayers.
Started on Victoza injections for my diabetes and my sugar is now controlled. I have lost 8 lbs in 3 weeks. Now skinner than I was when I was 11. Yes, ELEVEN!
My emotions are composed. My thoughts are lucid.
My body still fights the aches & pains of Fibromyalgia. I am doing better than I was but still not 100%… not sure IF I have ever been 100%.
Grateful that I have serenity. Tranquility ebbs from each and every pore of my chassis.
My sister Rosie is doing GREAT. Last year at this time the doctors were not sure she would survive. She has not only survived and beat the odds but has conquered so many other avenues. She is now a size 18 down from a size 34. So happy for her. Love that she can now buy clothes that fit here in almost every store and no longer need to be specially ordered. She is the happiest person I know. Always has been. Never lets ANYTHING get her down. I LOVE MY SISSY!
I want to thank God for bringing our friend Danielle in our lives. Never had a best girlfriend to hang out with. We now do and LOVE it! She has a new puppy, an Australian Cattle Dog named Tucker. They just visited us. Our dogs love Tucker. We all love Danielle. So does our Daddy.
Please keep Daddy in your prayers. Still has vision problems relating to his cataract surgery. I am worried he may have a touch of pneumonia. He has lung rattles at times.
Please continue to pray for Uncle Larry, Uncle Harold, and Aunt Earlene and the rest of my family. THANKS!
I want to Thank the Lord for my friends Rick & Shane. They have helped me overcome some of my shyness. They have taught me to be more tolerant & compassionate. They often put forth words that make me see various points of view that helps me to understand things from a different perspective. Shane & Rick have both enriched my life way beyond words could ever express. I LOVE THEM BOTH DEARLY! Please say a prayer for both Rick and Shane. Thanks!
Excited about 2014… and whatever delights it beholds for me.
I surrender my Life to Jesus.
November 16, 2013, at 4:44 pm
Uncle Larry: He had surgery to remove a brain tumor. They got it all but he needs radiation/chemotherapy for a lung tumor.
Uncle Harold: He is having all sorts of health issues. He is in a assistant living facility.
Aunt Earlene: She is having problems with her diabetes and circulatory system.
Dad, Rosie, and I send love and prayers to all of them and their Families.
November 26, 2012, at 8:44 pm
Rosie has been in and out of the hospital since August. Today is our 25th straight day in the hospital. I have NOT left her side. She had Gastric Bypass in June 2011 and I have complained to doctors, nurses, and hospitals ever since that she was MALNOURISHED AND DEHYDRATED. Finally The University of Tennessee listened to me and started performing tests. She has been critical. All her body organs have been affected. She is now on TPN feedings by i.v. They will be putting in a feeding tube soon. She has lost almost 300 lbs since June 2011. Too much too fast. Barely eats a handful of food daily. Has ascites of her heart, lungs, liver and abdomen. She has a fistula from her sigmoid colon to her abdominal wall. Diverticulitis. Hypoglycemia. Nausea. Diarrhea. Vomiting. Bowel Blockage. Fatty Liver. Had fluid removed from her lungs once already. She is getting antibiotics, fluids, feedings, physical therapy, etc. So weak. She had a good day today. Bad days far out weigh the good ones lately. I hate seeing her lying in bed so ill. She has not been up in almost a month.Rosie will be in the hospital here a few more weeks. Prayers appreciated.
My Uncle Mack passed away and so sad that we were unable to attend his service. Good Man.
Grateful that Cousin Chester was found safe after being abducted by some dog thieves.
Sending all my love and prayers to my cousin Rebecca. I pray that she is able to get off drugs before it is too late. She wrote me and Rosie a few weeks ago. Had not heard from her in almost a year. She wanted us to know she was worried about Rosie and that she loved us. We love her back.
John and I are no longer on speaking terms. Haven’t spoken since May. I moved on. I no longer have a best friend to talk to….
I am grateful for the friendship that I have with Shane and Rick. Don’t know what I’d do without their support and friendship.
A few months ago I placed some personal ads. Had a tremendous amount of responses. Have a young handsome successful lad from Nashville named Will who wants to take me out this weekend. I have too much on my table to date now. I am old enough to be Will’s momma. LOL! Can you say COUGAR? Also been invited to a New Years Eve Party. I could go on and on.
I have not wore makeup in over a month now. I do put on a lippy daily. Get that from Granny Goode.
The food here sucks! I loved the food at Parkwest, UT, and Ft Sanders hospitals but not so much here. Their salad bar sucks. I ate Cheerios for supper today. Gonna have Dad bring me and Rosie a Dinner from the Gondolier on his next visit. Dad doesn’t not visit daily… would be too expensive on gas. Hell we are spending a fortune on inedible hospital food! Nasty Shit!
Really not in a holiday spirit. Prolly won’t even put up a tree. I haven’t even shopped online!
Rosie and I are missing our Babies: Smoki, SnickerDoodle, Punkin, Jazzi, Tater, and Panther. We talk to them via speakerphone daily. Daddy is taking good care of them. Taking them out to eat and for car rides. Weeeeeeeeee.
I may go shopping at Walmart for some food items… like fresh fruit and veggies.. BUT I Hate leaving Rosie.
So stressed out. Pissed at everyone and everything. Wish Rosie would get a break. Poor lil thing has been through hell.
I have been getting hit on by MALE Doctors, Nurses, Techs and even a few ladies. LOL!
I will be 47 on the 19th of December. UGH!
It has been 18 years and 8 days since I was kissed. A LONG TIME! Lately I have been friskier than ever.Ready to have a man in my life again.
I have my eyes on 2 dudes…. just unsure if they are interested in me. Both are really compassionate caring handsome men. Wish they would show some interest!
Looks like Rosie and I will not be traveling to Disney World this spring. Doesn’t look like she will be healthy enough.
I am so glad President Obama won. Grateful that Rosie, Dad, and I got to go vote for him.
TV sucks here at the hospital. Can’t get the food network! That reeks!
Grateful for the CEO of the hospital getting Rosie a private room. At least she and I can sleep now.
Rosie just had her glucose checked and it is normal. Been a difficult few weeks keeping it over 70.
Rosie has lost about 80% of her hair due to her bad health. So I chopped my hair off in support.
I haven’t dyed my hair in 6 weeks… should see all the silver hair shining through. Will get it dyed JET BLUE BLACK soon. Also prolly a trim to refresh up my pixie cut.
Rosie and I hate missing going to the movies. So may films we wanna see. She and I had so many plans for this month and December. They all are down the freaking ass drain now.
Will update here more often.
Please pray for my baby Sissy Rosie. I love her.
March 21, 2012, at 6:54 pm
Sugar is still out of control. 416 tonight (70-120 is my target range)
Taking 7.5 MG of Metaglip 2 x a day.
Maximum dosage is 10 mg 2x a day.
Will go up to 10 mg tomorrow.
But I am gonna call my endocrinologist and make an appt.
I believe it would be best to go back on the insulin pump.
Rosie had a fairly good day. She actually got out of bed and did some chores today. 1st time in MONTHS!
I am feeling poorly today. Only slept 4 hours. Got up at 9 am. Tuckered out.
Still have chest tightness.
Haven’t chatted with John in 2 days. Worried about him and Janette. Sending prayers.
PRAYING FOR EVERYONE.